November 8, 2012
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Addiction…
I can’t breathe
And it’s all I can do to keep from screaming your name
In the deepest parts of my soul
I find myself still wanting you
Fighting that rational side of me
Telling myself over and over how you are no good for me
But my body feels as if it’s dying
In need of something only you can give me
Aching in places I cannot see
In depths beyond my reach
Needing you to fill my soul
Making me whole
Begging for your endless caresses
Your tender kisses
Knowing your flesh upon my own once more
Claiming me like never before
I crave you like an addict craves her fix
That’s what you’ve become to me
My drug of choice
And for that I am so close to selling my soul
To feed that need I have deep inside of me
Instead it’s panic that I feel
Eating me from the inside out
Laughing at me as I cry out your name
No matter how I try
I could never satisfy that need I hide
Ashamed of my weakness
I know now I am still addicted to the one man I should be running from
Comments (11)
Good post. Many of us have that same addiction, the ONE person most toxic that we can’t be free of.
Sometimes it’s so very hard to break those dependencies. Sometimes we become almost comfortable with what isn’t good for us because we won’t, or perhaps can’t, take that step to break those chains. Take care.
Wouldn’t life be boring and empty without such intense desires? Don’t they know specifically what we want to have control of? A pleasure, as always, Lady Storm.
A beautiful hunger… I know the feeling you’ve expressed so eloquently here.
People addiction is the hardest to break.
all too common of an addiction. nicely written.
great work
I experience feelings like this everyday. I can’t get rid of her either. It’s awful.
A struggle it may be, but what would you do without them. Life would just be a black hole. Nicely written.
@hombre_de_la_mancha - @JadeMaster2 - Sometimes the easiest thing to do is walk away knowing it isn’t healthy yet the hardest thing is fighting yourself to keep from running back
@Bond_of_Morpheus - it sucks when that one person feeds your deepest desires, and when you walk away you are starved for that intense feeling…Lady Storm I think I like that, so good to see you around
@Ampbreia - @buddy71 - @godfatherofgreenbay - @Journal2myself - thank you all for the compliments
@Grannys_Place - @yankeesgurl4lyfe - what was that amazing line in Brokeback Mountain…I can’t quit you…sheesh and then you walk away but your heart and soul never lets go
@wyckdstorm - Tis what we do as we walk the crust of the earth, we seek one another. We seek that one person who can wound us greater than any other, who can satisfy us with a simple glance. If I cannot be the master of my own heart, I would have a mistress to mold me to her pleasures. I imagine being with you would be much like a storm, an appropriate name you have chosen. I am around, even if quiet; I am glad you have made a glorious return. I am relieved to hear you are safe from the storms spinning over your head, it seems they are attracted to you, perhaps they have come to take you with them, perhaps they are your sisters. Blessed be, Lady Storm.