December 6, 2013

• Long story short….

  You would think after paying for a year’s subscription I would be around a lot more. It’s guess it’s been a trying time, between my parents health issues and then losing my baby girl Muneca. I still miss her like crazy but I’m not falling apart. I have noticed my lack of drive and my need to remain distant. I know that’s not the best thing but I guess I need time. I’ve had no fire in me to write and a part of me has felt so reluctant to share myself at all. But I have to keep moving, I still have my lil man at home and I don’t want this to affect him either, or at least not anymore.

  So after everything I finally made time to go back for my second visit with my ortho surgeon. And finally I am having surgery! The date has been set, January 14th. He will be removing my plica and resurfacing the back of my patella. I am so relieved to see this all coming to an end. My life has been stagnant and feeling trapped is making it worse. I’ve had people look at me strangely about being excited to have surgery, but they don’t understand I’ve been in pain every day since April 5, 2012. I’m done! I was originally scheduled for Dec 17th but my ahole manager had me change it. My other manager was pissed as he felt it was perfect timing, see my job is closed on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day as well as New Years Eve and New Years Day. He thought perfect as I wont come back to work to a full week and would be able to recoup better that way. But now I have to wait out another month in pain and go back the following week to a full work week. And since I’ll be getting a ride with a coworker I wont be able to just leave early if I’m not feeling good. Really sucks. Lately this manager has become more and more of an ass, so I’m not as friendly with him anymore.

  Then I hear that Stone Sour & Pop Evil are coming to NYC Jan 17th! That really pissed me off, but I’m going anyway. I called and got my tickets, I just can’t be in the crowd rocking out, I’ll be in the handicapped section in a seat. But hey I’m still going, if I could show up to see Shinedown with bronchial pnuemonia I can see Stone Sour 4 days after my surgery. LOL. There’s very few things that make me feel alive, dancing, sex, horseback riding and live shows. So since I’m still not having sex (yes I am still married ) and I can’t dance or go riding due to my knee the only thing I have left is a rock show. speaking of rock shows…we went to see Halestorm last Friday night. Love love love them! I saw them the first time they ever played in NYC and now they are just killing it! So I was hoping to meet them but now that they are a Grammy Award winning rock band it’s near impossible. So we all know I make beaded bracelets and have a “rock collection”, so I showed up with bracelets for the the guys and the lead singer. I was able to give them to a family member after the show. I have been waiting to see anything on their twitter feed or facebook page, but nothing. So I reached out via twitter to Joe (lead guitarist) and Lzzy (lead singer). Joe responded saying he was wearing his and thanking me for them! So when I messaged him back I noticed he changed his profile pic, I checked and its him on stage jamming wearing my beads! To say the least I am over the moon. I mean my beads are being worn on stage by Grammy Winning Artists! So now I’m on a mission to hopefully get some on Corey Taylor and the lead singer of Pop Evil (who is hot by the way).

  So that’s it in a nutshell. I’m hoping my spell of gloom and depression has come to an end and I can look forward to a better new year because this year has really really sucked! Hope everyone had a nice Thanskgiving. I hope I get back her before Christmas if not, hope its a merry one for everyone!

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