May 6, 2013
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The fool
Sometimes I wonder what the point of it is all for.
To keep trying only to be taken down.
To never reach the goal no matter how many yards you run.
Victory always seeming just out of reach.
I’ve questioned the faith I had in the things that have deceived me.
The lingering scars left behind now naked for the world to see.
I have lost so much to gain so little, and even that small gain is slowly slipping away.
Now it’s the waiting that has become the hardest part for me.
Waiting for the next shoe to drop, another piece of news better left unsaid.
Knowing the small victories will end in tears.
It’s a wonder why we’re even here.
Left to decide if we will hide until our time.
I no longer have it in me to smile, to pretend not to see the ending of my own dreams.
When all I want is to crawl away and cry.
One by one they destroyed it all, and I realized I could no longer hide.
It took it’s toil to fight to keep myself alive.
And now I can barely hope to make it through another day.
So I say it’s better to never wish nor want for anything.
To give up on the dreams I once had held so dear.
Now all that’s left is a bare shadow of my pride, to remind me of when I was so high I could touch the sky.
And of the fall that took it all because I was the fool who thought she could have it all.
Comments (9)
You’ve written very well what all people struggle with at one time or another.
A few years ago felt the same way, still do at times.
The hardest thing is living for someone else, its time to live up to your standards and yours alone.Hugs
Wow Sis, this hit the nail on the proverbial head. I’m sorry this has / is happening to you. You know how to reach me anytime, day or night. Just remember, there is light at the end of that damn tunnel. Even if you have to flick the switch on when you get there. I empathize with you so very much on this one. Take care.
Beautifully written, Storm.
That ‘trip’ can be SO frustrating especially when you feel like you are taking 2 steps forward & 3 back. But NEVER give up the ship, Storm, because each little step brings you closer to your goal. Keeping thoughts & prayers positive for a bright light at the end of that tunnel. ((((HUGS)))) my friend.
I’m so sorry you feel this way!
Beautifully written, though. I think anyone who reads it can relate.
Hey…When you think you are sitting alone in the dark, reach out…you’ll be surprise how many people are sitting there with you…they understand, they care!
I am one of them!
HUGS!!!
great work
@blonde_apocalypse - sad that we all must go through it
@soltero_alma -@MzSilver - @adamswomanback - thank you so much, sometimes it just helps to let it out and hopefully let it go when I write it down@godfatherofgreenbay - thank you
@Journal2myself - for me its no longer living for someone but the struggle to regain my own life
@wyckdstorm - That my dear isn’t always an easy task. However, only you can change your life. Remember it is YOUR life no one else’s. It’s un fortunate that we all get sidetracked from time to time, but anything is possible no matter how young, old, rich, or poor we are. It is in our power.
Hugs