March 29, 2013

• Moving on

  Well the cortisone injection has not helped and there is still a lot of pain and swelling.  So now I’m just waiting for my insurance to give me approval to go back to my surgeon so we can sit down and discuss how we move forward.  It’s frustrating but I feel like there will be an end in site and I hope soon.  I really don’t want to miss out on another summer.  I’m nervous my insurance company will give me issues now that no fault has dropped me.  My lawyer has advised me when cannot fight no fault because if we lose in the decision to reopen my case to continue coverage I would lose everything.  Not for nothing but I’m not willing to lose out on whatever I can get.  For all I’ve been through you best be believe I am collecting…lol.

  I’ve been thinking more and more about my future and what I want out of it.  Yes I may be 40 now but I need to really rethink where I am.  I’ve been unhappy at my work place for a while.  Crazy bitch upstairs continues to get away with everything and I am constantly having to prove myself to be a good employee.  Frankly I’m over it.  I know everyone is replaceable but you know what, they would definitely miss me when I leave.  I am thinking more and more about looking for a new place to go.  I am going to wait until after everything with my knee is resolved as I don’t want to have any issues with a new place.  But since I am getting older I need to make sure that I find something within the next year before companies feel as if I am too old to be hired.  With my company now I have jumped through every hoop and have bent over backwards to be able to maintain peace with this crazy bitch.  I have had to make so many accommodations and now they are fucking with me yet again.  See they want to move my desk, I am to be placed by a window near the doorway in the engineering room.  I already had a conversation with the VP about this.  Because I work on the 1st floor with the machines I am subjected to the fumes that come from them when they run as well as when they run the forklift.  It becomes unbearable and it triggers my asthma, since the remodel and my desk was moved to the back corner cubicle my attacks are nil and I am no where as sick with upper respiratory as I used to be.  So now yet again I am hearing that my move has been brought back up on the table.  I’ve made up my mind, if they move me I’m quitting.  I’m tired of being messed with by this one particular manager who continues to try and deflect the negativity from his crazy bitch to me.  It’s completely unfounded and my managers plus the VP’s right hand has fought against all of it because they know my worth.  But for me this is the last straw.  If my health is not a concern then I can no longer stay.  

  So it got me thinking after being completely stressed out, upset and furious.  I need to get everything together that I need to so I can start looking for a new place to lay down roots.  I’ve also found a new spark in myself to move forward with my jewelry line.  I’ve been working with a graphic artist on a logo and some really incredible designs as well as a new line of wrap bracelets (chan luu style).  I really want to take it to the next level, and hopefully this summer I will be working on opening my own website store and stepping away from etsy itself.  But that’s not the only thing I have in mind.  I want to move forward with my writing, I’ve had a completely new story bouncing around my head that I want to work on.  I made the decision to come off the antidepressants as I feel like it’s been a big hindrance in my writing and I feel as if it’s holding me back from pursuing where I need to be.  

  So that’s it in a nutshell.  I’ve included a couple of pics from my new designs coming out.  To keep up on what I do check out my facebook page at facebook.com/wyckdbeads , or my etsy store at etsy.com/wyckdbeads.  I also have a tumbler and instagram account, just look for wyckd beads!  

   

  

  These bracelets next are being specially made for raising money for the Sandy Hook Memorial Fund

  

   

  This is one of my Chan Luu bracelets.  It took 3 1/2 hours to make a three wrap.  Was so worth it!

        

   

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